Not Too Glamourous

The other night at small group we discussed that the dreams God gives you are not easy.  They aren't going to seem possible and they will scare you.

At that moment the first thing I thought about is my wanting to be a nurse.

I do actually really think that would be so awesome.  I just go really scared.

Scared?  Yea maybe this is what God wants me to do then.  Does it seem impossible?  Oh my yes it does.  However here's what I figured out.  To become a nurse you have to climb the ladder.  I'm sure it's the same way for any job/career you want.  You can't just say well golly I want to be a nurse and be a nurse.  You have to do several months of training.  5 long hours once a week...

You have to wipe old geezers bums and bring them their soup.  You have to help them get dressed and help them shower and bathe.  You have to make the bed with them in it and you have to deal with their... odors.  

It's not by any means glamours.  Not to say that once you climb the ladder and do all the training it gets any better.  I mean being a nurse just isn't a glamorous job.  However the thing I really would like to do is work in labor and delivery or in the PEDS area of the hospital.  The other night while babysitting Anjali and Caitlyn I was feeding Anjali and I thought how special, how awesome it would be to become a pediatric nurse.  In order to do that I have to start somewhere.  I have to start at the bottom.  I can't expect it to be something I fully enjoy right away, and the hard truth is I don't.  I don't look forward to Mon nights and I don't really much look forward to the idea of being a CNA, other than you know the paycheck.  Ha.  I do know though that I have a passion for helping people and I've always felt really comfortable in hospitals... which is odd but I love being in hospitals.  I'd like to work at one.  I realize I will still have to work with the old folks even after I climb the ladder but if I specialize in pediatrics then I'll be there on most days.  I do like old people, but the videos we watch in clinicals are all the warning videos about how rude some of the people at nursing homes can be.  That scares me, but hey when I first started working at The Maxx I was scared.  I got over though.  I've been there for almost a year now and I quite enjoy it.  I'm no longer scared, I now what I'm doing.  I didn't at first and I had my rude customers, I still do.  You can't get out of that when you work with the public.  New beginnings are scary but I know it will be OK.  By June I'll be a CNA and if I'm lucky I can get a job for the summer at Life Care or the VA and start saving to take the test and then I can go to college and be an RN and... yea.  Haha.  I know I'm really unfocused and I'll probably write a blog tomorrow about how much I don't want to be a nurse, but I'll stick to it anyways and then it'll be OK.