What I need is a new light.
My fire has fizzled out, flame by flame, I've died a slow death to myself.
I'm lethargic, completely apathetic, lazy, unattentive.
I'm rude.
I need God.
I ran away, and I'm having a hard time finding the path back.
I remember being passionate, full of life, on fire.
I'm not anymore.
I miss that.
I can't even cry.
I'm stoeic.
I'm dead.
As soon as I get home, we are having a girl day and we're going to encounter God in a crazy way. I miss you Trish, and I'm sad to hear that this is happening to you. I went through it as well. For me, I had to re-learn it all-- God, Jesus, church, worship, prayer, the works-- and it's a difficult process. Keep in touch, I miss you much and all I can say is that God will come through, even in our weakness he is still perfect. Just hang on.. have you tried intercession lately? I love you girl. Keep fighting for God.. it's definitely a battle sometimes but remember what's on the other side. He longs to be with you. He longs to know you. And he hates to see you hurting. Seek him with all of your heart and don't let Satan get this win.
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I would have died in a minute.
I said, "I am about to fall,"
but, Lord, your love kept me safe.
Psalm 94 17-19
Thank you Tori : ) I miss you too. I'm doing better, I just need to pick myself up off the floor and ask God to keep me up
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