Anxiety, Toilets, and Coffee

If you know me very well at all, you know that I have to pee ALL THE TIME!

Seriously, ALL THE TIME!

It's ridiculous. It's been like this for as long as I can remember, but recently it's gotten worse.

I get afraid to stay hydrated, because if I am drinking enough water I have to pee even more.

It's a bit of an odd topic, I know, but I really have no shame, seeing as how if you spend any time with me, you'll find out either by the fact that I make many trips to the bathroom, or you'll hear me complain about it.

About 2 years ago I had a procedure to fix this issue, and it did squat. I woke up from the anesthesia feeling like I had to pee, and I couldn't go! It was terrible!

Normally, I just have to go maybe every hour, which is a lot. But lately, I'm not even kidding you when I say this, it's every 20 minutes at least. I can hold it, and not have to go right away, but I have the feeling of having to go somewhere around every 15-20 minutes.

I go to the bathroom several times during the course of my morning. One of those times being directly before I leave for school. Once I get to school, if I want to make it through first hour somewhat comfortably, I have to go before class. Then after class, sometimes during class. After second hour, and third hour. IT'S OUTRAGEOUS!!! And it's not just like a little tinkle, it's a stream, a river. A lot.

I came to the conclusion that it has something to do with the fact that I am anxious ALL THE TIME! My muscles are always tight. My body is hardly ever relaxed. So I feel like I'm holding it in all the time, which then must make me think I have to go. I've tried to solve this by taking deep breaths, and not flexing those muscles down yonder. It's not really something I can just do, I have to think about it, so it doesn't happen very often. I told my mother about my frustration, and my theory, and she said it's the coffee. So I'm currently fasting from caffeinated coffee, and caffeine in general. It's only been two days, so I can't say much. So far it hasn't helped anything at all. I actually think I'm more relaxed when I do have caffeine in the mornings. Of course, that could just be me justifying my coffee addiction. I'm going to keep going with this for a while, and see if any improvement comes about, however I'm just really irritated with it in the meantime. I don't really know what a doctor would tell me anyways. I do NOT want to get on any anxiety medication, or bladder medication. I tried bladder medication once and all it did was make my pee orange. I'm pretty sure all anxiety medications have severe depressive side effects. AYE AYE AYE!!!! I just want to visit the facilities a normal amount!